Recently I’ve felt like I’m just going through the motions. Does anybody else think that too? I go to class, I do homework, I might work out if I can keep my eyes open, I eat something fast for dinner, I sleep. On weekends, I wake up before the sun, I nanny, I eat dinner, I sleep.
I just submitted my application to Public Health. The application that decides my whole future career. Its fine, I’m fine.
The application includes a 5 page interest statement explaining your career plans and your strengths and weaknesses as a student. Sitting in class listening to everyone talk about their applications and compare seriously irked me. The competition emerging from my fellow classmates was eye roll worthy. Registration for Fall 2016 classes is at the end of March and if results from Public Health aren’t announced in time, I have to sign up for classes like I was not accepted to the program. SO stressful, y’all. SO stressful.
Like I said, I just feel like I’m going through the motions and I’m stuck in this routine. I’m having a hard time seeing how all of my work now plays into my future – whether it be a week from now, a month, a year, five years. I found this:
The best things take time, and this quote really stood out to me. I might not be able to see the end of the tunnel right now, but I have to be satisfied with knowing that what I’m doing right now is adding up to what’s about to come.
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I think that the feeling of being stuck in a routine sometimes translates over to self worth and feeling good enough. When everything you’re putting forth doesn’t seem to be adding up to well, anything, here’s how you can emerge out of the funk:
Write it down.
My favorite. If you’re into handwritten, grab a sheet of paper and a pretty pen and do a brain dump. If writing by hand isn’t your thing, open a google doc and start typing. Don’t correct spelling, don’t review to “see how it sounds,” just WRITE.
When I was struggling through my break up, I turned to an idea that I’ve heard over time and it helped a LOT. I wrote a letter to the guy. I didn’t correct spelling, I didn’t review to see if it sounded right, I just did it. I wrote down how I felt and what I would miss and what I thought about the relationship now and anything I could think of. My friend told me a little while ago about how her counselor recommended this same exercise when her parents were going through a rough spot, so I thought, “What do I have to lose?” I wrote his address on the front, wrote mine on the back, sealed it, and sent it.
Sent it to my desk drawer, that is. I sealed it and put it away and wow did that work wonders. I felt such a relief, such a weight off of my shoulders. Because the letter was tucked away, and because I sealed it, it truly felt like I had sent it off to him and I really got my closure from the relationship in that way. You might be wondering, “Okay, cool, you wrote a letter to your ex. How does that apply here?”
Well, my friend, how about writing a letter to you?
I’m serious. Just you.
Write everything down. Don’t you dare check for spelling. Don’t even think about reviewing to see how it sounds.
Write to yourself about your dreams and your career goals. Motivate yourself to never stopping working towards what you believe. Beg yourself to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Know that everything you’re doing is just part of a series. Great things are done by series. Love yourself and remind yourself of that. The writing process itself will heal and inspire in more ways that I can say.
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What’re you waiting for? Find some paper near you, grab a pen, and go.